Welcome to my blog. I document my adventures and experiences with Kundalini energy. Hope you have a nice stay!
All in Self-Care
The answer I immediately received was this, “I wanted to bring myself into the Present moment and to create a situation where I had to no choice but to surrender into the intelligence of Life.”
When we connect with the Silence, we connect with the knowing that our kundalini journey is going to work out.
I was mesmerized and terrified by the power of the energy. It was this energy of extreme bliss and destruction. It felt like an omnipotent lightning bolt that contained all of creation inside of it.
“Take care of your body, it’s the only place you have to live.” -Jim Rohn
It is important to understand that these purges are intended to be intense and are going to take you to your edge.
Do you feel a 12 out of 10 crazy when you look in the mirror? Do you shake, vibrate, pulsate and feel electric crawling all over your body? Do you feel burning and acid rain in your brain? Have you diagnosed yourself with several different neurological conditions?
The surge in fear and anxiety you are experiencing along with the increased mind activity are all signs of the kundalini purifying process. When we are releasing old energies, patterns and fears our minds can interpret this as something to be concerned about (it is a survival machine after all) but rest easy knowing that this is part of the process and all is going according to plan.
“The spiritual journey is actually about discovering what in you is always beyond your personal desires. Life’s only going to dismantle your will and make it seem like you have no choice because the only choice you need is choosing to be where you’re at. And the more you choose to be where you’re at, the more you lose sight of where you think you need to be, and all the feelings you think that are going to be over there, are going to start showing up here, when we fully arrive.”
This unhealthy habit of relying on others to provide us love establishes that we need to take or get something from someone else in order to feel good about ourselves.
After much trial and error, I can say without hesitation that there is only surrender; everything else is pain.
Follow the feelings as they change within you. Allow yourself to be completely and utterly overwhelmed and immersed by your feelings.
The only path to freedom and peace for me is to allow the kundalini to live through me as me. This path is beautiful for the soul but horrifying for the ego.
The most flawed premise of all the flawed premises humans have conceived of is that the more that you do the more you’re worth.
The truth is that these are just aspects of you that want to be heard and felt. That’s really it. All you have to do is accept rather than resist what it is that you are feeling inside.
What ever you fully allow can never feel over whelming; it is only what you resist that feels over whelming.
