Are You Experiencing A Kundalini Awakening?

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I was inspired to create this post because when my Kundalini Awakened I had no idea what was happening within me and the uncertainty created a lot of trauma and resistance in my being.

My mind and body were completely terrified and confused. I went to the neurologist, three different doctors, the ER 3 times, had a CATSCAN, MRI, blood work, saw a psychologist, was prescribed anti depressants by a psychiatrist (thankfully never took them), started taking anti anxiety pills, went to a rehab facility for a few days to detox off of the anti-anxiety pills due to an adverse reaction, was suicidal, nearly went to a psyche ward several times, basically my whole awakening process was a mess and very scary initially for me and those close to me.

I asked my Mom what stood out about my Kundalini Awakening before we understood what was happening. She told me that I looked tortured and very afraid. She said she just remembers how much pain I was in.

My intention in creating this post is to bring clarity to a very confusing time for those of us who awakened the kundalini without any prior knowledge or conscious desire to do so. It can be very traumatic, painful and confusing to say the least. Our entire world is blown apart. Everything I mention in this post is based on of my own personal experiences.

If I create this post as I intend, it will be something that would have cleared up my older self’s confusion and put me at ease when I was in the midst of my spiritual crisis.

You might be having a Kundalini Awakening if…..

Do you feel a 12 out of 10 crazy when you look in the mirror? Do you shake, vibrate, pulsate and feel electric crawling all over your body? Do you feel burning and acid rain in your brain? Have you diagnosed yourself with several different neurological conditions? Do you sometimes actually hope it is one of those dreadful conditions just so you can finally know what the hell is going on with you? Are you incredibly sensitive to light, sound, touch, I mean really anything?

Are your ears ringing?

Do you wake up one day too terrified to get out of bed, the next day filled with white hot rage and then the next day are you depressed beyond hope? Are you experiencing DRAMATIC mood swings for what you perceive as absolutely no reason?

Do you experience tremendous amounts of sheer terror and overwhelming fear for no discernible reason? Have you convinced yourself that you just have some INSANE form of general anxiety disorder? Are you starting to question your sanity? Are you starting to believe that you are suffering from psychosis? Have you checked yourself into a psyche ward or are you considering it?

Are you in so much pain and confusion that suicide is looking like a reasonable option? Are you in so much pain that suicide feels like the only option to get out of this hell realm you are in?

Do you feel like you are being haunted? Does life feel like a nightmare? Are you becoming afraid of everything?

 Do you feel disconnected from reality? Are you suffering from derealization and depersonalization?

 Does the pain feel like it is NEVER going to end? Do you just want what ever is happening to stop?

Are you having daily panic attacks? Are you waking up with night sweats?

Do you have too much anxiety and energy to sleep? Have you lost your appetite? Are you freezing cold one minute and extremely hot the next?

Are your limbs randomly going numb? Do you have a strange metallic taste in your mouth? Like you have been sucking on pennies?

Are you completely exhausted and the only thing that brings you any relief however small is laying in bed? Have you diagnosed yourself with chronic fatigue syndrome?

Do you have intense forehead pressure? Like something is tapping on the front of your skull? Do you have too much pressure in your head in general? Are you suffering from brain fog and unable to concentrate? Do you feel like you have lost your ability to analyze and be logical? Do you feel like you have lost all intelligence and reasoning ability? Is reading and writing basically impossible?

Have you been prescribed medication that reacts with your body and mind like poison? Are you having convulsions or jerking sensations? Does talking to people feel completely overwhelming?

Are you having uncontrollable and obsessive fearful or angry thoughts?

Are you having VIVID dreams and nightmares that you swear are more real than real life? Does your entire life feel like a cold shower? Do you feel opened up and raw? Are you feeling unsafe? Is your outer life completely falling apart and collapsing?

Are you feeling completely ungrounded? Are you manic at times? Are you so depressed you cannot leave your bed at times? Are you crying every day? Do you scream into your pillow because of how hopeless and angry this situation has made you? Do you feel like giving up?

Are you taking it one breath and one moment at a time?

Does energy rush into your limbs and feet? Are all of your psychological, emotional, and physical traumas surfacing? Are you resisting everything? Have you looked EVERYWHERE for an explanation as to what is occurring within you and can’t find anything?

If you can relate to all, most or some of the above you are probably having a very unexpected spontaneous Kundalini Awakening and are suffering from Kundalini Syndrome.

This blog is full of guidance and information concerning what to do, click here: Kundalini Crisis Resources

I will share the best practices for what to do if you are completely overwhelmed by the transformation taking place within your being:

Psychological trauma can develop when we resist this process. The hardest part in the beginning is the lack of trust we have in the process. What needs to happen is a complete and utter surrender to what is happening within you. This may be nearly impossible for you to internalize depending on where you are in the process. There will come a point where you are so thoroughly exhausted and broken down that cannot fight one more second. That is when you will be able to surrender.

The practice of surrender is simply to completely relax and open your body to your experiences. Open into the intense energy. Allow it FULLY. Don’t believe your thoughts. Observe your thoughts but don’t identify with them. Not identifying with them doesn’t mean that you suppress them. Allow your mind its freedom just know that you are not the mind. You HAVE a mind rather than you are your mind.

When you surrender you will start sensing your space of being. As you begin connecting with your space of being you will have more space from the intense energetic process happening within. When we cultivate this space through surrender and letting go of who we thought we were we will start to sense a quiet inner voice that is all knowing. The voice will assure us that everything is okay and that we are going through a profound change.

Try this now: close your eyes and see if you can feel into the knowing that something profound is occurring within. You are more connected to the Truth of what is happening to you than you know. Rest in the silence and connect to the spaciousness all around you. Let go of your hyper focus on the mind and the body. Realize the Truth of you being much more than your body and mind by completely allowing all of the darkness within you to arise. Open yourself to the fear, pain, anger and despair. Allow that deep depression to come up to be felt fully.

Don’t shy away from anything. Whatever you resist persists. This is happening to you for a reason. The intelligence of the Universe is waking up in you as you. The old self you are desperately clinging to is no more. Who you will be a year from now is something you cannot possibly imagine. You are in the Divine’s arms now. What is meant to be will be. Your highest spiritual potential for this lifetime will be attained. It isn’t about you doing anything to facilitate this, in fact it is more about not doing and allowing the Divine Will to take over your Life.

Let your personal will dissolve. That is why there is so much suffering. It is your personal will or ego refusing to let go. Honor this personal will, for it has served you and taken you very far, but now a higher movement is coming into you and is going to guide you to your highest realization. Love your old self and then let go of it and surrender everything to the kundalini. Also read these posts:

https://www.kundalinidiaries.com/home/2019/9/10/kundalini-craziness

https://www.kundalinidiaries.com/home/2019/3/10/healing

https://www.kundalinidiaries.com/home/2019/8/15/the-gift-of-pain