Kundalini Awakening Symptoms: Head Pressure + Breath Constriction
Last night as I was lying in bed suffering from severe head pressure and gasping for air because my breath was so constricted, I asked out loud, “why am I creating this experience for myself???”
The answer I immediately received was this, “I want to bring myself into the Present moment and to create a situation where I have to no choice but to surrender into the intelligence of Life.”
As this realization came pouring into me, I completely let go. I let go of all control over my mind and body. I let the body breathe how it wanted to breathe, I let the kundalini breathe through me, and I let my mind think or not think as it wanted. I just let go into my spacious nature, not saying ‘yes’ not saying ‘no’ to any of it, just being a neutral space.
I kept falling deeper and deeper into my spacious and vast being. I let go into a realm of existence where I was no longer the body or the mind, I was just pure awareness, and I allowed the body, mind and energy their freedom to sort everything on their own.
I kept opening, melting and relaxing my awareness- never contracting on a thought or a feeling, just staying fully open to everything within me.
Out of nowhere a powerful whooooosh feeling took ahold of me in my heart center. It was like the bottom had fallen out from under me. I came back into the body and felt energy and prana flowing powerfully and freely. My breathing became deep, full and extended for the first time all day. I felt my heart center open and full of radiant aliveness.
Something had released. A block had been dissolved and an energetic shift had occurred. I melted into my body and fell into a blissful and restorative night of sleep.
A common prayer I speak goes something like this:
“God flood my being with Grace. Help me to surrender my egoic desires and personal will so that I can serve you more fully. This is your life God, I give my life to you, help me to be a conduit for your love, peace, joy and wisdom. Upgrade my consciousness God, so that I can serve you at my highest capacity and highest potential in this lifetime.”
When we ask God, the Divine to flood our being with Grace, to help us surrender our egoic desires and personal will and to upgrade our consciousness, if we are humble and genuinely mean it in every fiber of our being, God, the Universe will respond, but oftentimes the response will feel very fierce.
The energy and Grace that God floods our being with demands that we surrender thought and transcend the mind.
The energy that floods our being is showing us what aspects of ourselves and our consciousness that we are still in resistance to, and is teaching us to open in these places. The energy is trying to bring you into contact, connection and Being with ALL that you are.
Often, we retreat into the thinking mind when there are aspects of us surfacing that we don’t want to see or feel.
It is crucial to know that when we are lost to the thinking mind, we are giving away our spiritual power. This is because Presence= spiritual power. And when we are lost to the thinking mind we are disconnected from Presence.
Ultimately this energy, this Grace, is rooting us into our spiritual power. That’s why when you’re gasping for air, it can feel like your solar plexus is blocked. The solar plexus is the seat of our power, and this energy is trying to help us open more deeply in this chakra center.
When you fully relax your awareness and completely let go of control, you access Presence. You access a dimension beyond mind and thought, beyond judgement and duality, beyond time and space and when you let go into this dimension of existence the kundalini becomes liberated to flow freely and naturally melts away any blockages and resistances within you.
All the intense pressure, blockages, breath constriction and pain we create for ourselves is to cultivate more Presence so that we can access and experience a new depth of surrender into the intelligence of life.
If you have any doubts, get very still and bring all of your Self into where the energy feels the most intense and be FULLY present with it, and with ALL of your Essence, ask the energy what it wants or what it is trying to show you.
And the answer you will receive is: Surrender
Notes:
As you surrender thinking and identification with the thought, the mind may throw all sorts of tantrums, from thought storms (uncontrollable thinking), to intensely dark thoughts, to crazy fearful thoughts, it may even tell you that you are going to go crazy if you surrender constant thinkingness…. It is important to know that the mind is just an innocent survival machines and that it is trying its best to hang onto control… it is trying to grab your awareness to keep you from surrendering into Grace
It is normal to feel like you’re dying a physical death when we are surrendering into the intelligence of Life… this feeling can come with a myriad of different symptoms and feelings, stay relaxed and know that this is all part of the re-birthing process
Head pressure is always an indication that there are judgments and positionalities that we are hanging onto either consciously or unconsciously… the pressure/energy in the head is cooking and burning away our beliefs rooted in separation- so if you are able to surrender thinking/judgments/duality you allow the disintegration of those blocks and the pressure will dissolve because now the energy can flow again ****This may have to an unconscious surrender that happens in God’s timing
