Surrendering To The Kundalini And Balancing Your Hormones
Once the Kundalini Awakens we are no longer able to avoid or escape feeling.
This can be quite challenging because a lot of us were already sensitive people prior to awakening our Kundalini. Now we are tasked with maintaining a moment to moment conscious awareness about what is serving our being and what feels potentially harmful to our being.
There is no avoiding that we will make mistakes along the way and eat the wrong type of foods at the wrong time, indulge in dramatic entertainment every now and then, or even more severely, sleep with the wrong person for the wrong reasons. There are all sorts of pitfalls on the path, but every mistake we make serves us as we learn valuable lessons about who we are and what we prefer to feel.
And when it comes to how we feel physically, there may be few things more important than well-functioning and balanced hormones. Hormones play a critical role in our body’s quality of performance in all areas. Among these are our sleep, eating, digestion, and stress levels. Ultimately, hormones play a significant role in all levels of our physical existence.
When the Divine Mother/Kundalini awakens within it can send our hormones into chaos and confusion.
Suddenly there is this new energy active inside of our body that is doing what it wants when it wants regardless of the body’s resistance.
Our body doesn’t know any better and may enter into fight or flight mode for extended periods of time. This puts tremendous stress on the body because our hormone regulation becomes severely imbalanced. Our entire way of being is deconstructed piece by piece until our body learns surrender.
There is a difference between conscious surrender and unconscious surrender. We may be surrendering to the energy on a mind/intellectual level, but it is as if our body isn’t ready to surrender. Our body has to break down to the point where there is no other option but to surrender. Usually this happens right when we literally can’t take it for another second. This is fierce grace.
These are the days that are teaching you the primary lesson for the rest of your life: SURRENDER.
Whenever you veer from this inner state, pain and suffering will always follow. As it should. Because when we aren’t in the surrendered state we are acting from a place of ego and not of grace, and that should hurt.
Recently I broke from this inner state and paid a heavy price. Honestly, I break from the inner state of surrender to varying degrees all the time and the pain I feel in breaking from it always helps me find my way back to the state of surrender.
After reading about all of the benefits of early rising I tried to manipulate my sleep schedule by forcing my body to wake up and be active earlier than it wanted to. First off, what part of me wanted to enact this change? The answer is my ego, who craves achievement and attainment of validation through work. This is what I’ve been conditioned to believe and what my society has taught me to value. I received the idea for changing my sleep schedule from an external source-however well meaning- instead of consulting my body first and feeling its needs.
Sure enough, within a couple of days my hormones were completely off. I was releasing melatonin when I was waking up and releasing adrenalin when I was supposed to be sleeping. This combination creates a borderline torturous state and cannot be tolerated or sustained for long. Quickly, I realized that battling with the Kundalini was like waging war with the cosmos, and this was not a war that I was equipped to ever win, so I surrendered.
The Kundalini operates inside of your body with a higher intelligence and is something that we need to learn to trust and to adapt our lives around.
We need to surrender everything to the Kundalini and allow the Kundalini to live through us as us.
The Kundalini knows when our body needs to be awake and when it needs to sleep. It knows when we need to be productive and when we need to rest. It knows us better than we know us because it is us, a higher aspect of us coming alive to help guide us to a higher plane of existence. Let go into the path; in fact, give the path to Her.
This was the second time I have tried to alter my sleep schedule since my Kundalini has been active and both times I have had to abort mission immediately and just surrender to what my body needed.
If you ever find yourself in a situation where your hormones are off, here are some recommendations that I have found very effective at bringing me back into balance.
· Yoga- Especially Yin Yoga- Here are two videos Yin Yoga Surrender and Yin Yoga Endocrine Health that I HIGHLY recommend.
· 2 to 1 breathing- Inhale for 5 seconds and exhale for 10 seconds- Do this for as long as feels good.
· Deep Mediation-When you meditate, ‘unhook’ from the thinking mind and sink deeper and deeper into your ‘space of being.’ An effective way to think about this is to drop into the back of your mind/head and then keep dropping and dropping and if you drop far enough you may become one with the universe;)
· Allow-Lay down and allow the imbalanced energy/Kundalini energy to move through your body completely unabated. After some time, it will naturally come back into a balance.
· When your body wants to sleep, SLEEP. Don’t force anything.
Let go of societal conditioning and the ego’s need for control. Develop a relationship with your ‘self’ and learn to trust your intuition.
“You, yourselves, are meant to discover reality from inside and to direct your life this way. Through frequency control, you have been steered to look outside of yourself for answers.”
There is something important that I want to share with all of you going through a difficult Kundalini Awakening. Drop all the regiments, goals, self imposed rules and directives. Stop trying to control your ‘self’ through your will. Surrender your personal will.
After much trial and error, I can say without hesitation that there is only surrender; everything else is pain.
Stop allowing your mind to impose guidelines and behavioral principles for your day to day life. Most times we will end up abandoning these guidelines and principles anyway because the Kundalini has other ideas and as all of us know the Kundalini always gets its way and always has the last word regardless of the amount of pain we must feel.
Our personal will may want us to wake up at 5:30am and to meditate for 1 hour a day and execute a specific form of physical exercise or practice a certain form of yoga in the afternoon and achieve the required amount of productive work per day. Our personal will might tell us that if we aren’t moving forward than we are moving backwards. These beliefs have their place and can be helpful to a certain level, but they must be transcended if we are to go through this awakening in a smoother way with less pain and suffering.
When we force any kind of mental rule or order on ourselves we are not truly free in that moment. And the Kundalini has come into your life to free you! She is freeing you from all of the social conditioning that you have been inundated with through your lives. She wants you to stop doing the things you feel like you ‘should’ and to step into your truth so that you can reclaim your sovereignty.
“We have said to you that your lesson is authority-to become your own authority and to stop giving over your decision-making process to the governmental people or parents or teachers or gods. It is time for the people of Earth to become sovereign.”
This isn’t about becoming passive or slothful or going into a cave to live out the remainder of your days. It might mean letting go of misaligned activity and allowing your being to rest for some time so that you have the time to contemplate what is really important to you. Let yourself be free enough to let go into the Kundalini and into God, and trust me, they will move you into action.
You may end up becoming MORE active and being more productive because you will have more energy flowing through you. The energy of God and the Universe will be flowing through you and supporting your movement.
And this energy has so much more power than you could ever generate through will power or rigid discipline.
You’ll be moved by love and joy rather than forcing yourself into doing things just so you can cross something off on a list your mind has generated.
The information age has created machines out of the human being. Do you really want to be a mechanical machine going from one task that you ‘should’ do to the other? That’s old news.
We’re entering the intuitive age where the present moment is continually bringing forth opportunities to take aligned action that emanates from a higher intelligence. The energies on Planet Earth are here to support your transition from living from the mind to living from the heart.
“The self who can move into fourth-dimensional consciousness-the perceiver, not the thinker. It is the age of the self who understands that the thinking portion of the self is very important but that it is not to be the CEO of the physical body; it is to be an adviser.”
