3 Kittens
This week I have spent a great deal of time with three semi-wild kittens. Entertaining doesn’t begin to describe the experience of observing them. As cute as they are and as enjoyable as it has been to watch them play I am also learning some profound lessons from their interactions.
When interacting with cats I’ve learned that you cannot force anything. They are resistance free beings with no resonance to any sort of inner struggle. They literally melt in to each moment in complete surrender. It is beautiful and stunning to witness. They have a playful grace that extends into a deep intimacy with one another.
Their relationship with themselves and the world around them is built on acute sensitivity, trust in feeling and a deep state of allowing. These kittens know intimacy, playfulness, pleasure, trust and peace with such grace and ease. As fiercely as they play with one another a gentle tenderness is always present.
It looks to me like life is just one long warm bath to them. They allow it to be that way. Why would it be any other way? They don’t know anything other than alignment. Complete alignment is their way of life.
I remember one day this week plummeting in to the depths of my shadow. I was submerged in to a darkness that I hadn’t visited in quite some time. It came over me with stunning suddenness and force. It was just there. I went out and visited the kittens to see what they would have to say about it. It turns out, not much.
They curled up and went to sleep in a kitten pile. Not having slept that well the night before I found myself swallowed up by their sleepy, peaceful energy and was deep in to my own restorative nap within minutes. It was exactly what I needed.
To live more like a cat is to live more like our essence.
Giving ourselves permission to give our ‘self’ what is needed. For too long I had these foolish ideas about what was expected of me and feeling guilty for doing what I wanted to do. Those feelings and beliefs are continuing to lose their power over me and new beliefs based in a higher vibration are coming in to replace them.
Beliefs that encourage me to let myself off the hook and to just let go and trust that what is happening is supposed to be happening otherwise it wouldn’t be happening. And that’s the thing, what is happening is happening anyways.
The kittens are saturated in this divine feminine essence that radiates from there being with every elegant movement. With every elegant movement they also exude this deep sense of power. This power permeates every fiber of their being even when they are being completely adorable.
It brings me to a really powerful perspective of feminine and masculine.The more we are able to balance these movements within us the more power our thoughts and actions will hold. An imbalance leads to weakness.Too much masculinity and we become overly aggressive, greedy and selfish and create a world of enemies and distrust.Clinging too much to feminine energy could result in meekness, a victim mentality, anxiety and neediness. It is about integrating feminine and masculine, the light and the dark, yin and yang.
Realizing that feminine and masculine have nothing to do with gender and everything to do with our uniqueness. To embrace one at the sacrifice of the other is to create an imbalance within which we will have to experience in our daily lives until we allow ourselves to fully integrate what we are suppressing or avoiding.
As time passes and I make following my heart my only priority I can feel layer after layer of limited beliefs began to make their way from my body and mind.
This process feels very physical and ethereal in nature. I have found that the singular act of listening to your heart and then acting on the inspirations given has accelerated my awakening timeline more than I could have ever anticipated.
When the suppressed beliefs and their heavy energy leave the body we start feeling more lightness within our bodies. We become very literally more spacious. I have realized that spaciousness and courage are synonymous. For the more space we have within the more freedom we have to act from our power and the more courage we will have to take actions that serve the highest good for all. When we take the time to do the inner work and cultivate this spaciousness the less likely it is that fear will sabotage our actions.
I come up against my limited beliefs and old sub-conscious programming every time I post a blog that doesn’t gain any traction, or post a YouTube video that no one watches, or even worse when I lose a subscriber. My ego is deathly afraid of rejection and turns every dislike, loss of subscriber or lack of approval in to a Hollywood drama.
If I hadn’t cultivated the space from these limited beliefs and old programs I would be tempted to quit every time my ego felt threatened or damaged. But the spaciousness within gives me the choice to either go with my mind/ego’s fearful and hurtful projections or to just allow the drama to be there without getting involved and then to just keep creating content.
Most of the time I choose the latter but there have been times where I have been so overwhelmed by negative emotions that they have completely suffocated my creative impulses. When this happens I have found it useful to just allow the storm to pass and then reconnect with my heart for the next inspiration.
When we feel the heart centered connection we don’t ever want to leave it and it becomes our number one priority to stay synced up with it.
Source energy doesn’t follow us to ‘should do’ and ‘social conditioned actions.’ Source is always there within us but we feel the connection when we are taking inspired actions. And for every inspired action we take another inspiration manifests within.
When there is no inspiration manifesting within there is so much more leverage and efficiency in just ‘being’ instead of following the minds conditioned patters. We will ask that God express through us and that all we desire is to be a vessel for the Divine. The act then no longer matters as long as we feel the connection. Everything else in life becomes secondary to our connection to all that is.
I’m so in love with writing and creating YouTube videos and through these pursuits I’m starting to fall in love with my ‘self.’ If we don’t feel our love no one else will. Following our hearts promotes a feeling of self love. While on the contrary doing what we ‘should’ do or what we are ‘expected’ to do can cause a fracture within that leads to varying levels of self-hatred and disappointment.
