Psychic Openings And Sweetness Of Emotion
Last month I had a string of psychic openings that left me in a daze of spaciousness.
I was feeling very charged with energy. My subconscious was exploding open. What I mean by this is I had a powerful influx of energy that illuminated the core of my fear. I felt a fear deep in the pit of my stomach being drug up to the surface. I also felt powerful anger in my head and my hands and feet went cold because of all the suppressed darker energy coming up to be released.
One evening the powerful kundalini energy sent me to my edge of feeling safe. I was taken back to the place where my only course of action was to lay down and take deep belly breaths. No matter how many times I’ve been through an energetic opening, they always surprise me with their power to shatter the reality I was previously experiencing and take me into unknown waters.
After my string of psychic openings I found myself exhausted, uninspired and submerged in self-doubt. Another name for these concurring feelings is the ‘void’ (self-doubt optional).
For these strong energies to be integrated in a peaceful way I realized that as Sadhguru would say, “I needed to have ‘sweetness’ of emotion.” Otherwise known as love. The frequency of love is what integrates the energy into the physical vessel in a manner much less painful than if love wasn’t present within.
If we don’t have adequate sweetness of emotion or a frequency of love for the newer energies to merge with, we are left feeling overwhelmed and on the brink of ‘this is too much’.
The energy coming into us is light. Light is ‘information’. You could call these psychic openings ‘downloads’. That is a popular term for feeling the infusion of newer energy and information that flood into the being. The thing is, is that light= information and love= creation. So you need both in order to process the energy and then create a harmony within after it has been downloaded.
When faced with what feels like too much energy it is important to make a distinction between the energy and your mind and how your mind is interpreting the energy. The energy is neutral. It is just energy being energy. Your mind however is picking sides.
Maybe it is fearful of the energy; naturally the mind is afraid of anything it does not understand. If the mind becomes hostile to the energy, overly fearful, angry or projects any form of negativity onto the energy and the process, it is important to not identify with the mind and instead allow your ‘self’ to merge with the energy, prompting the mind’s fears and projections to dissolve.
You have a choice: end the separation that the mind has created between you and the energy by becoming the energy, or stay interested and persuaded by what the mind is projecting and suffer.
This is clearly something that is a practice and something that we cultivate over time. The best way to cultivate this practice of merging with the energy and allowing the noisy mind to dissolve is practicing a stillness meditation. Here is what I do: https://www.calmdownmind.com/the-practice-of-relaxed-awareness/ I do it between 20 minutes and 2 hours a day depending on my inner state and how much processing is taking place.
The feeling of voluntarily awakening the energy within is absolutely divine and sort of chaotic. You just never know how much you are going to release at one time or how much you are truly capable of integrating. It is the ultimate adventure in trust and faith and sometimes really puts all of your spiritual and mindfulness tools to the test.
Listening to the body is paramount. Surrender to its needs. Learn to speak its language. Something I’m primed to commit more to is sensing my body’s movement when I meditate. I am usually more in the space of the 3rd eye and if I’m lucky my crown chakra. Going forward I intend to come more into my heart and solar plexus.
The psychic openings came just as I was gaining momentum with my creative projects.
After just starting a YouTube channel and this blog I knew it was imperative that I continue to create blogs and videos, yet I had no energy for creation or for anything else really. At first this felt really frustrating because I knew I wasn’t making the progress I thought I needed to make. No matter how many videos I tried to shoot or blogs I tried to write the energy just wasn’t there. The well was dry and I was forced into surrender. I was left no other choice and my body was desperate for deep rest (a common theme this last 1.5 years).
Once I surrendered I noticed a deep calm set in throughout my body. The void wasn’t going anywhere so why not just allow this calmness to prevail and to give myself permission to fully sink in to it? That is exactly what I did.
While my body basked in the peacefulness of the surrendered state my mind was having an entirely different experience.
My head was filled with this heavy spaciousness that wasn’t pleasant or reassuring. I couldn’t find an identity to plug into and the story of ‘me’ just wasn’t there to grab on to.
On the surface that sounds liberating, but I could feel the pain that still resides within my skull so acutely. I felt this driving pain all around my skull and a deep fear in the pit of my belly.
My constant companion while I was in the void was the powerful book ‘Bringers Of The Dawn.’ It isn’t what this book was about so much as how it made me feel that I will always be left with. It changes you.
New information that I would have considered esoteric and ‘too far out’ not that long ago now has a deep hold on my interest and curiosity. Channeling is one such subject that even as short as three months ago I would have considered it outlandish and outside of what I considered possible.
After listening to Bashar, Abraham Hicks and reading ‘Bringers Of The Dawn’ and ‘The Ra Material’ I am starting to change my tune. These works have influenced me on a deeper level than I could have ever surmised. Not that long ago I would have been very uncomfortable with what channeling implied. The idea of another entity essentially using someone as an instrument to express through sort of terrified me.
What has altered my perspective has been asking the Divine to flow into me and to express through me.
Sometimes when I am feeling so full- full of life, vitality, love, a deep sense of peace, a knowing that everything is beautiful and perfect even in all of its chaos, I wonder why? Why anything?
Why write, shoot videos, express the Truth in conversation? What is the point of any of that when everything is so perfect and I could just ‘be’ for infinite eternities because there is nothing ‘more’ needed to enhance this moment?
Pure enjoyment and connection are the reasons that spontaneous movement is instigated. My being feels the internal movement of growth and to resist this is to create unnecessary suffering. Sometimes the movement of growth asks for space to meditate and to allow all of my suppressed negative energy to release.
Other times it is to just give the physical body time to rest and recover from intense energetic shifts and releases. And then it asks for outward expression and connection. Regardless of what the kundalini and my body ask for it is all fueled by living in an evolutionary reality that values growth above all else.
Whether I’m going within and bringing piercing insight to my deluded thoughts, or I’m taking more imperfect action writing my blog and shooting my videos the movement emerges from this place of growth and expansion.
I found myself swimming against the current this week after making two very poor videos and then feeling embarrassed and ashamed of them. I found myself wallowing in the disappointment and believing my negative thoughts about the situation. And then, I came across this from Abraham Hicks. I am paraphrasing here but it goes something like this:
““Do I have the ability to not be disappointed even when conditions are disappointing? How conditional are you? If your well-being is contingent upon the condition then you are probably going to be disappointed quite a bit. But if you have the ability to see it as coming, to accept it as part of the process and to embrace the clarity that is coming as a result of the contrast you discover things right around that disappointment that are not disappointment at all and it is like finding the real treasure.””
I have also realized that not all inspirations end up directly creating a positive result.
Sometimes when we follow up on an inspiration it doesn’t work out the way we think it should have. But if we look a little closer we can see that we have been provided with more clarity and a clearer choice. Living a life of action is about learning to love and appreciate the contrast.
Spirit continually reveals to me that this awakening isn’t for my ego to get what it thinks it wants. Goals, desires and aspirations are all very good and fine, but when a string of psychic openings occurs, it puts everything into perspective once again. The Truth is unyielding in its consistency.
